After i had opened the wound from my amputation, i was sent to an adult rehab for twenty days because they wanted to put me on a wound pump. The pump stayed on for 24 hours, but i stayed at the rehab for 20 days. The physical therapy was helpful and the daily egg salad sandwiches were delicious. But because i shared a room, i had no privacy and was only getting about 4 hours sleep each night.
First thing in the morning i had a CNA bring me two cups of coffee with a cup of sweetener and creamer. One morning, after a very sleepless night, he brought me regular sugar instead of sweetener. i needed that coffee so so much, i was tempted to just add sugar. But i waited until he wasn't busy so i could get sweetener for the coffee. He felt bad about the mix up that he brought me 4 more cups of coffee with sweetener.
Devon worked late one night and i am still unable to prepare my own meals. i was so tempted to order a pizza. i see TV commercials for them all the time. True i was hungry, my blood sugar was stable, so i just allowed my stomach to growl. Focusing more on the exercises i am limited to do. Waited until Devon came back home. A day without food isn't going to kill me, i need to lose more weight anyway. i just have to be very cautious about my blood sugar.
What i tell myself all the time now, is i have eaten such bad unhealthy foods all my life. And look where it got me. i'm not ready, ever, to have any further amputations and i don't want to shorten my life then i already have.
When i am able to walk again, these temptations will be tougher to fight ... but fight i must.
Fight i will.
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