i'm hearing the theme song to Rocky in my head. All because i was able to make myself a pot of coffee and clean around the house a little. With the aide of my walker and balancing myself on one leg, it wasn't easy, but damnit, i did it. i want to be able to do more, but i do have limits still. Where i was a couple of months ago, even just a week ago, i feel confident and proud of my progress.
It's difficult to see past the current moment, and i don't want to get more depressed thinking about the future that i want right now. i keep trying to remind myself, and others keep telling me, this is only minor setback and soon i will be unstoppable.
i have two choices ... ... ...
Sitting on the sofa feeling sorry for myself and letting everyone do everything for me.
Or do what i can ...
what i should have been doing all my life ...
in building my body and mind stronger.
The purpose of this blog is to remember what it took to get from one place of devastation to where i will be.
Educating myself and others. Inspiring myself and others. i'm a later bloomer and it shows with amputated toes, amputated leg, congested heart failure, boarder line kidney issues and shortening my lifespan.
i want to show myself, and others, how easy it is to alter ones lifestyle to live happily, healthy and to still live.
Exercise alone has always been my downfall. i always started something, but never follow through. i was either bored or didn't see and feel instant results.
It is truly amazing me how much i am enjoying the exercises i am doing daily and how my diet has completely changed and it is delicious. i use to crave sweets and junk food, i don't anymore. And i don't miss them either.
People say that every now and then i'll be able to treat myself, i worry that one treat will result in two and three and then ... ... ... i first have to prove to myself that i am strong enough beyond my current situation of being stuck on the sofa. The outside world has many distractions and temptations.
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